Saturday, May 25, 2013

Tryin' To Hear The Roar

"Listen to the roar!! ... can you hear the roar??" There's this Oklahoma weather guy on a YouTube video who keeps sayiing this over and over. He's driving me crazy because, no, I can't hear the roar because he won't shut up or turn down the car radio. It's a little frustrating.

So what do you do when you want to be a Storm Chaser, in your car with the video recorder on your dashboard, and then you realize you've come across an uber-deadly and violent F5 tornado. You can't turn around. You have to drive into Joplin and enter Hades On Earth. Look what happened to this Jeff Piotrowski and his wife Kathryn...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EfdK6H9d6J0
 
A few weeks later he is interviewed. Clearly the guy is forever changed and traumatized from the experience.
 



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I have been spending too much time on YouTube watching tornado videos. There is one of the father driving toward the Moore, OK elemtary school where his son attends. He is a block away from the tornado. It is extraordinary footage, not because of what natural phenomenon going on around him, but that he seems to be capturing an image mirrored back to him of his own helplessness, heart-sickness and grief. There are other videos of people getting that close to a tornado.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-iuGipbmneY

The Tornado Storm Chasers are an obnoxious lot in pursuit of recording these storms. The videotaping is made from simple, shakey cameras--not the high-end gear you'd might expect from so-called professionals. The throw around jargon like "vortices" as a pretense of some kind of scietific knowledge. One storm chaser even groaned because the funnel cloud never made it "on the ground". What person would be thrilled by such an unfortune?

Some of the Storm Chasers seem to use emotionaless, blanket expressions they throw in along with their jargon. Expressions like "God be with the victims" sometimes comes across as an excuse for the vague voyeurism. But while some of these deadly twisters are destroyed many homes and the lives of adults and schoolchildren, yet the Storm Chasers are thrilled by the event to turn back. It is strange. The videos feel exploitative.

Undoubtly, the best storm chasers are a different kind of storm chaser. They are ones who were up close simple because they were at home and caught a tornado roaring through their neighborhood.  [Watch this in high defnition and plug in your headphones!]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-iuGipbmneY


The Oak Lawn Tornado Of 1967



[Above: a photo from the 1967 Oak Lawn tornado which touched down 3 blocks from my childhood home]


April 21, 1967 around 5 pm, my father came home for his dinner break (he was an Oak Lawn police officer on 2nd shift). The skies turned a glowing, putrid green color and perhaps not unincoincidentally, like the skin of the Wicked Witch of Oz. My mother started banging on the bathroom door for my father to let me, my mother and two siblings in and climb in the tub. Not a lot bothered my father, not even tornado sirens. So we climbed in the tub and held on. My mother said it sounded like a freight train. I roared through town only about 3 blocks away. Now I was only 2 years old, so I really don't remember much of it, but each spring we'd get storms like this--the thunderstorm, the sudden stillness, gray-green colored sky, and hail. And my mother would get very worried, upset and anxious.

It was a monster--an F4. Very destructive, but skipped around alot, so it didn't spend a lot of time on the ground doing the kind of damage it could. The tornado nicked the corner of the high school pool where I would even devote 4 years of my life to being in so I could swim competitively.

I was one of those kids that was both in awe and terrified (in a real and also amusement kind of way) of big thunderstorms.


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Watching the tornado videos and interviews, often people will speak of them as if they are some hellish monster with a conscious and evil will. They will yell out, "In God's name, be gone!". I am somewhat amused by this. When I watch the tornado videos, I do not see dark creatures tearing up the landscape. No, not at all.

Actually, I see them as a kind of machine or engine--true to the freight train sound they make, and not at all anykind of attributable characteristic of something like, say, good or evil. It's a vertical wind tunnel. Even hearing the term "monster tornado" when describing a huge F5 tornado, sounds a little too much like projecting some highly-charged emotionally-based human characteristic on, well, a basic natural phenomemon.

What I do find interesting is that scientists are still not 100% sure of how they are formed.

Over the past week I've watch enough YouTube videos now. Tornado videos get boring. When I came across the ones of first Storm Chasers arriving into Joplin, I had had enough.


Thursday, May 16, 2013

When I Was Tex

 
This is a photo of where I once worked in Houston, Tx. The incredibly large 230,000 sq. ft. space once housed the 'hypermarket' French-based retailer Auchan.

What is a hypermarket, you ask? Well, a hypermarket is like a very large and well-stocked Target. It has everything (or at least in theory) everything you could possibly need and find in place. Sort of like "one stop shopping" on steroids. You could buy things such as fresh shrimp, a roaster chicken, a bag of Oreos, a VCR, some new clothes, fresh sod, fresh baked bread, a box of motor oil, a ready-to-assemble coffee table or lawn edging. For some, the concept was wonderful. For others it was just too much or bizarre even.

I will be frank and say working there (the Houston location) was largely unpleasant. You could probably tell from my saying that that is also largely an understatement. It was hell, more or less. For many reasons other than an utter lack of interest, the store's upper management couldn't have assigned me a worse position. I wonder what would've happened if I was able to have articulate a more convincing plea. I had just picked up my life and my high hopes and within two weeks, I was stuck with it. There was no option for my returning to Chicago either.

I spent the little free time I had in the Montrose area (the cultural area), stocked up on art supplies and began putting together a graphic design portfolio. I had interviewed with Schlumberger (a dream come true) and started putting a new plan together. I went for sweaty mountain bike rides a lot (the humidity!)  and saw a lot of armadillos and ice houses. I improved my guitar playing. I enjoy having an inground swimming pool. I met Andrea there.
Needless to say, within a year I (along with nearly the rest of the exhausted and bitter Chicago management team) returned to the Illinois and re-settled ourselves. Incredibly, three of my car's gears (1st, 3rd, and Reverse) went out just before I left and I drove--and made it all the way back-- to Chicago driving on only 2nd and 4th. I never quite appreciated "reverse" until I no longer had it. Maybe that sums up my Houston experience: No Reverse.

Here is what Auchan looks like today. It's a good enough photo essay on how Auchan's bad managerial karma caught up with it.



For those hot summer early evening bike rides, here is what I had for my mixes that I listened to on my cassette walkman (remember, this was 1991). I still listen to these records and still love them:

The Replacements - Don't Tell A Soul
Happy Mondays - Thrills, Pills And Bellyaches
The Charltans UK - Some Friendly
Ride - Nowhere
Deacon Blue - Fellow Hoodlums

I really don't feel the future unfolding in real time, but when I look back (as when I'm looking at this photo) it really does seem to have the feel of a hurricane force and just blows the past away. I see the halcyon highlights of sunlight around the building and it reminds me that tommorrow always promises something better. I took awhile to see evidence of it, but Chicago definitely had that waiting for me when I returned.

Tuesday, May 14, 2013

Life Beyond Sports And Music

I google'd JB's old online moniker and came across a blog he was keeping. It was after awhile that I realized he wrote it believing nobody would ever read it. It was like a non-so private journal or diary, a non-private private slice of cyber world to place thoughts, much like I'm doing here. The melonoma that JB had (in 1996) when he was 21, came back full force when he was 31. He was dead at 34. The time when I knew him best when I myself was 34, which I believe to be the (or a) peak year of life. I don't know his family or partner, and I imagine they are unaware of his blog. It's strange that it's still up and may up for a long time with perhaps my being the only person aware of it.

Someone had streamed the complete new Daft Punk 'Random Access Memories' album online  There are a couple of great tunes on it. Basically, Nile Rodgers old Chic-style guitar playing is all over the record, and it sounds very much like an updated Chic album

Speaking of music:

My family gave everyone in it two choices: music or sports. It's strange because anything else just wasn't on the map at all, as if supporting something they had no idea about, was way too uncomfortable for them. My mother was always pushing music and my father was always pushing sports.  I only pursued music because a) I could do it and had natural talent for it and b) I thought they would finally give me admiration and approval. But m family could say: we want you to climb Mt. Everest and then we'll approve of you and admire you. And then I go out and climb Mt. Everest and come home having done just that and they would say, "oh, that's nice. Pass the butter please...". Or maybe they would just throw the butter at you because they hated when I enjoyed myself and my life and being young.

If I had said, gee, I'd like to become a lab researcher, a rocket scientist, or a civic engineer, they would have absolutely no idea how to support that or give encouragement even if they really didn't understand what that was. Entertainment is easier for them--which is, music and sports. You learn how to do something and you perform what you learned in some sort of get up or uniform. It's not... uhm, a rocket science.

The Briggs-Meyer test repeatedly tells me that I should be in the field(s) that I already am in: art and psychology. Well, I've read enough psychology and understand it a fair amount that I have probably in some way earned a bachelor's degree in it. Another area they recommend is literature. I've read enough literature to have earned a masters degree. So there.

I am a better athelete than I am a musician. With that said, I think I will go for my 10 mile run soon as I sign off here. More to come...

Time (backwards and forwards)

I'm turning 48 next week. That's all fine, but in my mind I'm still, er, 'forever 21', as if every late halycon afternoon were eternal and I could go recline under a tree and read Bronte or Emerson and never worried about the future. And the future arrived like slow moving clouds. A quarter of a century later and I go to the mirror and I see late adulthood coming on. It's a little depressing. I look to some friends in their 70's and note how good and healthy for themselves. They are still engaged and interested in life. Mitch, the 92-year old man near my house, spends much of his time carving wooden birds and gardening. Maybe his halycon afternoons when he was a young man were filled of that.

I was listening to Modern English's 'After The Snow'. Besides the single "I Melt With You", which is now inseparable from the 1980s in pop culture, but the rest of the moody, austere record does it for me. Right now I am listening to Tycho's playlist online. Great stuff. Would I have listened to music like this when I was young and discovering Modern English for the first time? Yes, I believe so.
I started a painting last night and was thrilled with the idea of it. I continued working on it today but something was lost. I think I felt more excited that I was able to let go of my usual, more predictable way of painting. Maybe it was too much. It evolved faster than I could get there. I removed as much paint as I could (an interesting image from removing the paint) and put two fresh coats of gesso over it and will start again.

It's hard to believe, but it's been 10 years since my trip to Paris. It was the first time I ever ventured outside of the United States. I had no idea what I was doing, but that unknown sense of adventure and risk made it seem even more thrilling. I taught myself as much colloquial French as I could. Sadly, when I got there, it was easier to navigate than I ever dreamed. In ways, it was like the USA in an alternate universe--enough similiar and enough different.

By the 4th or 5th day I was bored and ready to leave. I happened upon St. Germain (across from Deux Maggots) during Holy Saturday services. I took communion, but I was not Catholic. I looked up and on the ceiling was a fresco of St. John the Baptist. It seemed to me that was when I decided that I would to become Roman Catholic, but it would take three more years before it actually happened.

I finally got to hear some of the new Daft Punk record (Random Access Memories) that they have been promoting to death for the past two months. It sounds like Chic-meets-robots.